Turned 17 last friday.
Lame.
Very lame.
I feel kinda bad for saying that since my sister tried to make it fun, but as usual mother dearest had to ruin everything. Seriously. We, meaning me, my boyfriend and my sister reminded her almost everyday for a month and she still couldnt remember it was my birthday. It would be ok if she had short term memory or old timers or something but she doesnt. And then the night befor she made up some lie to cry about just so that people would turn all their attention to her again.
She blows the bill money to go drinking with her "friends" (which are only using her for free alcohol). She makes me and my sister late for work by staying out all night with guys she just met. She doesnt even buy grocieries anymore. Shes even letting a guy live in the upstairs apartment for free,(his bills are just added to ours.) but said I would have to pay 650 a month plus utilities to live up there.
I want out. Im so sick of living with a bunch of free-loaders. I have my own life to pay for, I shouldnt have to pay for three other people that make twice as much as I do. Im tired of cleaning up everybodys mess just because they're too lazy to do it themselves. Seriously, I wash the dishes and the very next day nearly every dish in the cabinets are dirty. I take out the trash befor I go to bed and the next morning its so full that they just leave the trash lay around the house. I buy grociers for a week and they eat it all in one night. If I dont take the dogs outside to do their business theyre left inside untill they have accidents on the floor. And I love my nephew to death but hes not my son. I shouldnt be taking care of him while his father lays around not even buying him food or diapers.
Im sorry to rant like this but I felt like I was about to explode. I do everything and they dont even show an ounce of graditude.

Keep in mind I multitask alot.
.. also I tend to get caught u in my thoughts and not pay attention to things around me quite often as well.

Mark which things you have done, then calculate your score by counting the number of questions you marked. This test is out of 100 questions which means that the number you get as your score is also your percentage. Tag 10 of your friends , and re-post as "I do stupid things __% of the time."

1. [] Forgot to put the lid on the blender, turned it on, and had everything fly out
2. [] Gotten your head stuck between the stair rails
3. [] Broken a chair by leaning back in it
4. [x] Had gum fall out of your mouth while you were talking
5. [x] Choked on your own spit while you were talking
6. [x] Had people tell you that you are blond when you're not, or had people tell you that your blond highlights are going to your head (I AM NOT BLONDE)
7. [x] Been caught staring at your crush by your crush
8. [x] Have looked for something for at least 5 min then realized it was in your hand
9. [x] Tried to push open a door that said pull
10. [x] Tried to pull open a door that said push

Running total: 7

11. [] Have actually believed someone when they said that they knew how to make a love-potion
12. [x] Have hit yourself in the process of trying to hit something else
13. [x] Have tripped and fallen UP the stairs
14. [] Have actually exploded marshmallows in the microwave
15. [] Have gotten gum stuck in your hair
16. [x] Had gum fall out of your mouth while trying to blow a bubble
17. [] Have had the juice from a mini tomato squirt out and hit somebody else when you bit into it
18. [x] Have had your drink come out your nose because you were laughing so hard
19. [] Have called one of your good friends by the wrong name
20. [x] Have skinned your toe because you were playing soccer or kickball with flip flops on or you were barefoot (I dont like to wear mah shoes)

Running total: 12

21. [x] Have put a sticker on your forehead, forgot it was there, and went out in public with it on
22. [] Have fallen out of a moving vehicle
23. [x] Have run into a closed door
25. [x] Searched for your cell phone while you were talking on it *
26. [] It has taken you longer than 5 min to get a joke
27. [] Have gotten your hair stuck in a blow dryer
28. [] Have gotten your hair stuck in a fan
29. [x] Tripped on a crack in the sidewalk
30. [] Said o'clock after saying how many min after the hour, example: 5:30 o'clock, or 6:15 o'clock
Running total: 16

31. [] After someone told you that there was gum on the ground, you stepped in it
32. [] Put on a white shirt even though you already knew it was raining outside
33. [x] Have ever walked up to a stranger because you thought they were someone else
34. [] Ever been kicked out of a grocery store/off their property
35. [x] Touched the stove, the curling iron, a hot pan, etc when its on, even though you knew it was hot
36. [] Taken off your clothes to change into something else then accidentally put the old clothes back on.
37. [x] Wondered why something wasn't working then realized it wasn't plugged in
38. [] Put the cereal in the fridge, or put the milk in the cupboard
39. [x] Walked into a pole
40. [] Wore two different earrings or shoes by accident/stolen someones shoes by accident

Running total: 20

41. [x] took a picture of someone's eye with the flash on
43. [x] Gotten a ring stuck on your finger because you put it on even though you knew it was too small
44. [] Walked out of the bathroom (stall) with toilet paper stuck to your shoe without realizing it
45. [x] Went to go do something/go get something, then when you got there, you forgot what it was that you were going to do
46. [x] Picked up someone else's drink and drank out of it by accident when your drink was right next to it
47. [x] Fallen out of your chair while trying to pick something up
48. [x] Have poked yourself in the eye
49. [] Have gotten in the shower with your socks still on
50. [] Melted your hairbrush while blow drying your hair *

Running total: 26

51. [x] Have done enough stupid things to make a test
52. [x] Have accidentally stabbed yourself with a pencil
53. [x] Have sung the wrong verse to a song without realizing it
54. [x] Have given an odd answer to a question because you didn't hear the question in the first place and didn't feel like asking what it was
55. [] Told someone you were the wrong age because you seriously forgot how old you were
56. [x] Looked into an overhead purposefully while it was on
57. [x] Got up early and got ready for school/work, then realized that you didn't have school/work that day
58. [x] Forgot your own phone number
59. [x] Have tripped on a cord after someone told you to watch out for it
60. [x] Have ever laughed at a joke that no one else thought was funny (if you dont laugh its cuz you dont get it!)

Running total: 35

61. [] Done the Macarena to the electric slide or vice versa
62. [x] Said funner then had someone make fun of you for it
63. [x] Have repeated yourself at least twice in the same sentence
64. [x] Brought up an inside joke with the wrong person
65. [x] Didn't do the backside of an assignment because you thought that there wasn't one because you had already looked and forgot that there was another side
66. [x] Did more work than you had to on an assignment because you didn't read the directions *
67. [x] Corrected someone's grammar/pronunciation then figured out that you were the one that was wrong (it’s so embarrassing.)
68. [x] Put something in a special place so that you would remember where it was, then forgot where you put it.
69. [x] Put ice in your drink after the glass was full of liquid and had it splash out
70. [x] Told a lie then forgot what it was that you had said and got caught
Running total: 44

71. [] When wearing goggles, you pulled them away from your face and let go so that they would come back and snap you in the face
72. [] Forgot to make sure that the lamp was off before you replaced the light bulb
73. [x] Ran into a door jam
74. [] Told someone that you hardly ever do stupid things, then immediately did/said something stupid
75. [x] Told someone to watch out for something, then you were the one that ran into it
76. [] Have purposely licked playground sand
77. [x] Have purposely and repeatedly flicked yourself with a rubber band
78. [x] Gotten so hyper that someone actually thought you were drunk when you weren't
79. [x] Have been so hyper you actually scared people
80. [x] Put duct tape on your body then pulled it off to see if it would hurt

Running total: 50

81. [x] Put tape on someone else's hair then pulled it off
82. [x] Put a clothes pin/hair clip on your lip, figured out that it hurt, then did it again
83. [] Sat and wondered why men's dress shirts have a loop on the back
84. [x] Made up a code name for someone so that you could talk about them to someone else and no one else would know who you were talking about
85. [x] Have gotten a hairbrush stuck in your hair.
86. [x] Used the straw to blow the straw wrapper at someone
87. [] Shaved your tongue because you thought your taste buds looked funny
88. [x]When at a restaurant, you used your spoon to fling stuff at people.
89. [x] Have flung forks at people in a restaurant
89. [] Tripped and made the waiter drop the food.

Running total: 57

91. [x] As you are writing, you move/moved your head back and forth with your pen/pencil
92. [x] Have drawn finger puppets on your fingers then named them. (shut up! i was bored)
93. [x] Have wrapped someone in a roll of toilet paper.
94. [] Have used somebody else's toothbrush without even realizing it wasn't yours
95. [x] Have started telling a story and forget what you were talking about or what happened in the story
96. [x] Read a whole book but during the whole book you weren’t even paying attention
97. [] You have spelled your own name wrong before
98. [x] When lying in bed you look for pictures in the texture of the ceiling.
99. [x] Have used your calculator as a form of communication in a class
100.[x] Have popped a balloon in your mouth

Running total: 65%

haha Im more than half retarded XD

Seriously I might as well have been a zombie.
I had viral pharyngitis.
Fun right. not.
Thats why I havnt been on for a few days. I was tired. My throat was extremely sore and swollen.. it was nearly impossibly to swallow anything even liquids. I had an ear infection in both ears. Congested and bleeding sinuses. Thankfully those symptoms are almost gone but Im still throwing up and coughing really bad..
I should be better in a few days though.
So yeah, up untill yesterday everyone told me I had strep throat and said I was very contagious. WRONG. I was only contagious if kissing, sharing food or drink, eating off contaminated utensils, or other means of swapping saliva. But anyway, my mother wouldnt let my friends over. Not even my fiance. She said I was too sick but then she left me alone every afternoon to babysit my nephew.. real smart of her aint it? Im almost too sick to function and she expects me to take care of an almost two year old little boy that doesnt listen worth a damn. AND she expected him not to catch my virus. I swear shes a flippin genius.
Just thought Id fill you guys in a bit on how the last few days have been.

I must say that I liked my immortality, my invincibility, my sheer indestructableness that I had while doped up all the time. In those days I was never sick unless I took too many pills or drank to much. I could walk through snow without the slightest chill.. now my immune system is absolutely pathetic. Im getting so so often.. and even the slightest cold seems like a massive virus. its like as soon as I fight one off another ones trying to get in. And Im constantly cold. Sometimes even when Ive got a fever I feel as though its ten below..
And I know what you're thinking, 'Oh great shes back on the drug wagon..'
You're wrong. Im not going through that again. I've cleaned up alot. I have not drank in months. And the only drugs Ive so much as touched is a little weed every now and then when I get really bad headaches(and thats only because asprin and stuff like excedrine makes me throw up).I havnt even cut myself lately.
I can finally say I've found a way out of my hole and Im doing everything I can to get out of it completely.

Ok so I know i was gone for a while again. And Im sorry. Ive just been so busy lately..
Thanksgiving came and went and holy crap I just realized its almost christmas.
Im soo far behind in everything. I havnt writtin or drawn anyting due to lack of time.Nearly all I do is work and sometimes sleep anymore.Worst part is that I hardly have any money to show for it.the money I make at mcdonalds goes to pay the bills my mother has gotten herself so far behind on.and I dont get paid for helping the kids at the boys and girls club.So Im pretty much screwed when it comes to giving christmas gifts tis year.
On top of it all I missed my twins birthday last week.
I havnt even been to my counsiling. Ive missed an entire months worth of meetings...

I just wanna crawl in a hole and hide for a while...