sooo...all this bullshit thats been driving me insane is over...I hope..
Wednesday and Thursday James came to see me at the Boys and Girls club(where I did my community service).I had his mom take me home last night so I didnt have to walk in the rain..and when we pulled into my driveway he just kind of stared at me..I asked if he was going to let me get out so I could go inside and he still just sat there staring at me..I got alittle annoyed and reached for the door handle as I started to crawl over him..then he grabbed my arm and said "Im sorry." I gave him that 'whatever' look.And then he looked almost like he was going to cry and said "I really am..Im sorry for everything I did to hurt you.." I didnt know what to say so I just sat back down..then he said "I love you..Im sorry it took me leaving to realize just how much I needed you..I really do love you.." I was almost crying because I didnt know if I should be happy or beating the hell out of him..so I said 'rove it.' and then he replied without hesitation "Marry me." I was too shocked to say anything...and he just kept staring at me...finally I was able to say 'Seriously?' and he was like "yes,seriously.I want to be yours forever.." ...I said yes...So now were back together and I feel better and...I actually didnt even feel much like drinking tonight...I think I had one maybe two drinks.. the only down side is that I work 1:30pm to 10pm tomarrow and then I have to work 8am to 4pm Sunday...not much time to spend with anyone this weekend..