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Sun Jan 4, 2009, 2:01 PM

Mood: Triumph
Listening to: Sweet Dreams - Marilyn Manson
Eating: too sick to eat right now.
Drinking: Kool-aid

I must say that I liked my immortality, my invincibility, my sheer indestructableness that I had while doped up all the time. In those days I was never sick unless I took too many pills or drank to much. I could walk through snow without the slightest chill.. now my immune system is absolutely pathetic. Im getting so so often.. and even the slightest cold seems like a massive virus. its like as soon as I fight one off another ones trying to get in. And Im constantly cold. Sometimes even when Ive got a fever I feel as though its ten below..
And I know what you're thinking, 'Oh great shes back on the drug wagon..'
You're wrong. Im not going through that again. I've cleaned up alot. I have not drank in months. And the only drugs Ive so much as touched is a little weed every now and then when I get really bad headaches(and thats only because asprin and stuff like excedrine makes me throw up).I havnt even cut myself lately.
I can finally say I've found a way out of my hole and Im doing everything I can to get out of it completely.

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~Ireful Jan 5, 2009, 3:10:19 AM

I'm very glad to hear that! Its understandable that your body's immune system will be down after everything, best you can do is building it up again. Cliche cliche, but drinks lotsa water, eat vegetables, and also parsley. Parsley builds up your blood again. Drinking lots of water will help your kidneys cleanse waste from your body, and drinking lemon juice dissolved in water will help get your liver in tip top shape again, as your liver also cleanses your body

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I wander and wander along,
And forever before me gleams
The shining city of song,
In the beautiful land of dreams.

~bugsymoron Jan 5, 2009, 6:27:22 AM

Ahh the way you were is like me, I brag about my immunity to everything; I've been getting my flu-ridden friends to cough on me just to piss them more that I can't catch their sickness.

Like the advice above, I recommend lots of water, and take vitamin supplements if you can, especially vitamin C

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Poetry is a life line without limit

I love anything that smells like CHOCOLATE!

This guy is simply TOO awesome--> ~whalelova

~tears4everfalling Jan 9, 2009, 1:33:20 PM

Thanks for the advice. Ive been trying to build it up.. These last months Ive spent sober Ive been filling up on as much fruits and vegetables as possible.

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If you could only see the way she loves me maybe you would understand.. - Tonic.

~tears4everfalling Jan 9, 2009, 1:39:16 PM

Indeed. I loved to do that to my friends. I even once kissed my best friend because she had mono. I never did get it... Even when I was a kid I didnt get sick. Like when I got the chicken pox they only lasted like three days..
But recently I dont even have to be near somebody thats sick and I still catch it..

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If you could only see the way she loves me maybe you would understand.. - Tonic.

~Rebelegade Jan 11, 2009, 8:06:37 PM

OMG <33333333333333333
I'm so glad to hear that you've stopped drinking and have stopped taking drugs!
It's unfortunate news about being sick all the time, though. Dx.

Just keep on doing what the others have told ya and STAY OFF OF DRUGS, MISSY.
If you ever ever ever ever ever ever ever (that was really fun to type, btw) feel like idk what you do... shooting up? smoking? again, MESSAGE ME AND DON'T DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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_{Love like you've never been hurt...}

~Ireful Jan 13, 2009, 4:21:35 AM

thats good, try to keep that up

--
I wander and wander along,
And forever before me gleams
The shining city of song,
In the beautiful land of dreams.

~tears4everfalling Jan 15, 2009, 11:13:24 AM

yes. Im am quite proud of myself for once. And it actually wasnt that hard to do once I got some things straightened out. The sick all the time is a downside but I can deal with it.
I do plan to stay off. Ive had quite a few chances to go back to those habits and Ive gladly refused. Ive finally got my life to a point that I am actually getting happy. I dont wanna screw all that up.
I will definetly talk to you. (and I was a snorter and a smoker not a shooter.)

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If you could only see the way she loves me maybe you would understand.. - Tonic.

~tears4everfalling Jan 15, 2009, 11:18:34 AM

I am trying. Im doing everything I can to stay away from the way I used to be.

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If you could only see the way she loves me maybe you would understand.. - Tonic.